Saturday, January 31, 2009

Not much going on here

We were busy with our poor sick child (who is feeling better even though he has a runny nose today). Then, it was my birthday. And now? Just living life. Benjamin has been working hard this week. They are putting in a new phone system, so he has worked a 50 hour week as well as going to school on-line for 2 classes, plus he has to work this weekend. I feel bad for him to work so hard, but hopefully he can get some extra days off next week. As for me, nothing too exciting. My principal talked to me, and it looks like I'll be teaching back in the regular classroom instead of being a resource teacher next year. I am very much looking forward to getting back in the classroom. Right now it looks like I'll be teaching 3rd. I might teach 4th, but either one will be fine. I also will probably have a student teacher next fall, which is exciting. It will be my 10th year teaching next fall, so I think I am ready to "pay it forward". Other than that, nothing too exciting. Just remember that William's 2nd birthday is coming up soon. March 5th!!! We will probably have is party on Feb 28th since that is the Saturday my Dad has off. So, mark your calendars for a little boy's party.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

I think we are on the mend!

William's fever is gone and he is feeling better. I don't think it was the Roseola since he never did get the rash once his fever broke. I guess it was just a random virus. Thank goodness he is feeling better. He even has gotten his appetite back. However, since the illness we have taken a step backwards with the binky. He really was only using it for napping and sleeping at night, but when he was sick, we gave it to him for some comfort. Um, I guess that was a bad choice. He now wants his binky all the time and cries when Ben or I won't give it to him. I was thinking he was getting ready to wean from it, but now I don't think so. I know we will get in trouble at his 2 year appointment from the pedi, but oh well. Bad Mommy and Daddy. Maybe we can try to do some pacifier weaning this summer when I am not working.

In other news, tomorrow is my birthday. I usually like my birthday and look forward to it, however, this year I'm not exactly happy. I will be 35 and officially "advanced maternal age". Ugh! I guess I am feeling old. Now I'll round up to 40! (Ok, maybe that is the math teacher talking hehehe)

Thursday, January 15, 2009

My poor baby!

I admit. My Blogging is not what it should be. I follow a lot of Blogs where something gets written almost everyday and here I am barely making it once a week. However, I do have a good excuse. My poor baby has been sick. He started with a fever Monday night. Nothing too high, so we figured another tooth would be poppin through. However, Tuesday he still had his temp and it was rising. Benjamin stayed home from work with him and his temp continued to climb. He called the pedi and they said to give him a lukewarm bath and if it continued to call back Friday! I think from Tues-Fri is too long, but I I'm not a nurse or a doctor. Anyway, by Tuesday night, it had climbed to 103, so I called the emergency line. The nurse said I wasn't giving him enough Motrin, to give him some more, and if his temp got higher than 104 to go to the ER. Well, about an hour later, it was 103.9 - close enough for me - so we decided to take him to Urgent Care. We figured it would be quicker than the ER and if he needed to go to the ER they would tell us anyway. We get there, get right back with the Dr, and the Dr sucked! Looked in his ears, said he wasn't sure, and proscribed antibiotics. Um, ok, that was worth the trip. We go back home, put William to bed, and hope for the best. Wednesday morning he was back to normal, but I decided to stay home with him just in case. I was glad, because his temp came back. Back to 103. It was up and down all day. It started to go down, so I went ahead and took him with me to my hair appointment. He even got his hair cut while we were there. He did really well, and hardly cried. Anyway, while we were there, his temp went back up to 103 (glad my hair dresser is also an LPN). She looked over him and told us to have him seen Thursday. He had a rough night waking up at 2am with a temp of 102. We put him to bed with us, and this morning was back to normal temp. However, after what happened yesterday I decided to stay home again (good-bye days off - I took my last one for the year today, Oh well, my baby is more important than work). His temp had been normal, but he hasn't eaten a think in 3 days. He is napping now, and I'll check his temp again once he gets up. He has an appointment at 2pm, so hopefully this dr (our reg dr isn't in the office today, so we will see the other dr in the office) will do a better job looking him over. I am so tired. I haven't slept in a week. I myself was under the weather last weekend and haven't slept much. Since William is napping, I might try to get in a nap myself. I hope we can get some answers today. I feel sorry for my little guy. He's been so lethargic and not himself it is sad. I'll try to post after we see the Dr this afternoon. Hopefully, his temp will stay down after his nap.

Look at Lucy cuddling with our sick child. Awwwww. What a sweet puppy!
P.S. William wanted to be on the floor instead of the couch. Whatever made him happy!

We went to the Dr and she said she thinks it is Roseola. He has been acting pretty well this evening; playing and acting more like himself. If he gets a rash tomorrow or the next day, then it is for sure Roseola. The rash comes after the fever breaks. It could also just be a random virus. At least I think he is feeling better. He even ate a few crackers!

Saturday, January 3, 2009

"An Ugly Pair of Shoes"

I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes.
Uncomfortable Shoes.
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.
Yet, I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes.
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
They never talk about my shoes.
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in the world.
Some women are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think of how much they hurt.
No woman deserves to wear these shoes.
Yet, because of the shoes I am a stronger women.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.

Author Unknown

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy New Year!!!

It is a new year. A clean slate. A new beginning. Hope. Possibilities. Dreams.

What a crazy year! Let's take a trip through 2008...

Jan & Feb
These months consisted of planning for William's first birthday. It was a nice time in our year.

William's first birthday! How amazingly fast his first year flew. It was a lot of fun to plan.

April & May
Just regular months. However, we started getting issues with William's daycare late in May and we decided to pull him out. It was then I decided I wanted to be a Stay at Home Mom.

Ah, school was out and we started getting ready to sell the house!

The house SOLD~! Packing, packing, and feeling a little sad about leaving our home, but thought it would be for the best.

Moved in with Mom and Dad. It was a full house, but we are very lucky we have such wonderful parents that would even let us do it. We also tried to get pregnant this month by doing a FET (frozen embryo transfer). Our hopes were high and then came crashing down when we found out the cycle didn't work.

Problems with qualifying for a home loan. I contacted the school district to see if they would let me come back to work. This was a hard time for me as I was not sure the distrcit would let me come back, and I was feeling very guilty for not really enjoying being a Stay at Home Mom. After some interview, rejections, and all that, I finally got hired at Somerlid! Things were starting to look up.

We bought a new house! How exciting! We were also getting ready to try another IVF cycle, but found out on Oct 28th that we wouldn't need it; that we were expecting! WOW!

Nervous news about the baby, as at our first ultrasound the baby measured behind. It was a very tough month. We tried to stay positive, but it was hard with distressing news in our minds. Benjamin and I did have a nice getaway to Las Vegas and got back just in time for Thanksgiving.

Miscarriage. Sadness. Tears. Dispair. Surgery. We still had a very nice Christmas and a toddler that is the light of our lives.

This year had its ups and downs. We will learn from our experiences and hopefully 2009 will have more ups than downs!