A sad day for our house. :-(

We had to put our wonderful cat, Zarbie, to sleep today. He wasn't eating his food, was hiding downstairs, and wasn't even sleeping with us at night. So, Benjamin took Zarbie to the vet and the vet said that Zarbie had FIP. Those of you who don't know what FIP is (I didn't know at all), it is a terrible infectious disease that cats get (not dogs). We have absolutely no idea how he got it since the only way you can get it is from other cats, and Zarbie has never been around any cats since we got him in 05'. He never went outside, ever! He must have gotten it before we even got him, and it stayed dormant until now. It was a hard decision, but there is no cure for FIP and it is a horrible death. The poor kitty was already showing signs of going down hill and there was no sense to make the poor little guy suffer. What really hurts is how much William will miss him. I am glad William is so young that he really won't remember, but he loved that cat. His first word was "cat". He will be greatly missed. Here is a picture I took about a month ago when he was still ok.

Not looking good!

No it is not! We have yet to get an offer on the house so it looks like I might be going back to work next year. We thought we could just refinance the house and take out the equity in cash to use like my salary. Unfortunately, we did not qualify. So, that meant we had to put the house up for sale. It was a tough decision, but it was more important to me to be a SAHM now, and after the baby gets older I would go back to work and we could get a wonderful house again. Well, like I said, the house is still on the market with no offers. My last paycheck is in August, so unless by a miracle the house sells tomorrow (showing at 3:30pm - wish us luck) I probably will have to go back to work. They have already filled my position, so I have to apply for a new one. I guess if I don't get a job I will have to sub. The thought of having to put William back into a daycare breaks my heart (see previous daycare posts to see why), but what can a mom do. He really does love to be around other kids, so if I can find a place I feel good about this time around I think it will make life for me a lot easier. Please oh please just let our house sell tomorrow!!

Is it possible to love this child any more than I already do?

I can't believe how much I love this little boy of mine. Just when I don't think I can love him any more he does something that absolutely melts my heart. Last night, it was just William and me (Benjamin had to work late). I was sitting on the couch, and William was over by the window playing with his blocks. Inside his block wagon was a few little animals from his Noah's Arc toy. He then proceeded to bring me some of the little animals. He would bring them to me, take them back, practically run to his Lego wagon, throw in the animal, and clap for himself. Then, he would take out the animal he had just thrown into the wagon and bring it back to me and start over again. He did this over and over and over for over 30 minutes!!! Just as happy as can be, clapping for himself every single time! I knew if I moved to get the camera he would have stopped, but boy do I wish I could have gotten that moment on video. It is something that I will remember for all time. It was just so precious to watch. I love to see him do more and grow. It is quite amazing! I knew I always wanted to be a mom, but I had no clue how much I would love this little boy. He is a true miracle! Out of all the eggs and embryos we got from our IVF cycle, he was the strongest; the one who stuck around. What an amazing child! I am so lucky I am his mom!

Wordless Wednesday: The bunny in the window.

William got another hair cut

WOW does this boy HATE getting his hair cut. I am wondering if this is his last hair cut for a long time. He cried, wailed, hit, screamed, etc. We basically had to hold him down to get it finished. I don't think I can do that again. Maybe next time I need to wait until he is asleep and then try to cut it myself. Our hair dresser really did a nice job and tried really hard to calm him, but he was mad! MAD, MAD, MAD!!! However, look at how cute he looks now!

BEFORE

AFTER

William driving around

Maybe we play MarioKart on the Wii too much!

Fun in the Bath