Happy New Year!!!

It is a new year. A clean slate. A new beginning. Hope. Possibilities. Dreams.

What a crazy year! Let's take a trip through 2008...

Jan & Feb
These months consisted of planning for William's first birthday. It was a nice time in our year.

March
William's first birthday! How amazingly fast his first year flew. It was a lot of fun to plan.

April & May
Just regular months. However, we started getting issues with William's daycare late in May and we decided to pull him out. It was then I decided I wanted to be a Stay at Home Mom.

June
Ah, school was out and we started getting ready to sell the house!

July
The house SOLD~! Packing, packing, and feeling a little sad about leaving our home, but thought it would be for the best.

August
Moved in with Mom and Dad. It was a full house, but we are very lucky we have such wonderful parents that would even let us do it. We also tried to get pregnant this month by doing a FET (frozen embryo transfer). Our hopes were high and then came crashing down when we found out the cycle didn't work.

September
Problems with qualifying for a home loan. I contacted the school district to see if they would let me come back to work. This was a hard time for me as I was not sure the distrcit would let me come back, and I was feeling very guilty for not really enjoying being a Stay at Home Mom. After some interview, rejections, and all that, I finally got hired at Somerlid! Things were starting to look up.

October
We bought a new house! How exciting! We were also getting ready to try another IVF cycle, but found out on Oct 28th that we wouldn't need it; that we were expecting! WOW!

November
Nervous news about the baby, as at our first ultrasound the baby measured behind. It was a very tough month. We tried to stay positive, but it was hard with distressing news in our minds. Benjamin and I did have a nice getaway to Las Vegas and got back just in time for Thanksgiving.

December
Miscarriage. Sadness. Tears. Dispair. Surgery. We still had a very nice Christmas and a toddler that is the light of our lives.


This year had its ups and downs. We will learn from our experiences and hopefully 2009 will have more ups than downs!

Could ths puppy be any cutier?

The New Parenting Style for 2009

Time to meet "Lucy"

Here is our new puppy Lucy. She is a 15 week old Cavalier King Charles Spaniel. I have been wanting a new puppy for a while and was a little shy with what happened with Muttley. (See previous post back in June.) I am hoping that William and Lucy grow up to be best friends. So far he isn't too sure about Lucy. He laughs when she licks him but is afraid when she goes up to him. I think in they will get used to each other soon. So far, Lucy is a very good puppy. She is such a cuddler. She likes to be on our laps instead of playing. In fact, she is on my lap as I type this post! So far, I am thinking she is a good fit. I have had puppies a couple times before and had given them back to the breeder withing a day or too, but I think that was because it was when I had Dusty and she didn't get along with other dogs at all. Last night Lucy did very well in her kennel and only cried a little bit. With a little soothing from me, she went to sleep. She only woke us up once to go out to go potty, and she did what she needed to do. Here are a few pictures. After over a year of being dogless, we have a dog again!! YEA!!

Christmas 2008

We had a wonderful Christmas again this year. I was a little nervous about being sad on Christmas because of our loss, but it was a very nice day. My little William loved the toy he got from Santa - a toy kitchen. He started to really understand "opening" presents this year. He of course got very spoiled from Mom and Dad, Grandmas and Grandpas, and Aunts and Uncles. This child may be the most loved child in the world (even though some of you may beg to differ!) ;-) Here are some pictures...

"Oh Boy!! Look at what Santa left me!!"

"Is this all for me?"

"Can I cook you some breakfast?"



"Whoa, you mean there are presents in here too?"

"I'm such a big boy on this trike with my helmet."

"I love my Aquadoodle from Grandma and Grandpa."

"This Star Wars tent is sooo much fun!"

"I love to spend time with my Great-Grandpa!"

"Especially when he lets me play with his remote contral skunk!"



"Grandma and Grandpa help me open presents too!"

"I love the trike Uncle John got me. Even the day after Christmas!"

To my unborn child

I never held you in my arms.
You didn't have a name.
I didn't get to know you,
And I loved you just the same.

I never knew your laughter,
I never heard you cry
And yet, we shared my body;
together, You and I

And in those brief, but precious days,
My little girl or boy;
You brought me so much happiness,
My cheeks felt tears of joy.

For I knew that His wisdom,
Our father up above,
Saw fit to bless our family with you;
His beautiful gift of love.

Feeling down today

I thought I had been doing better about things, but today I am just feeling down. I feel like crying, and I am just so tired of crying. I realize it has only been 10 days since I found out I miscarried and only a week since my D&C, but I guess I thought I'd be handling things better than I am. I have used all my sick days for the school year between missing days for the D&C, dr's appointments, and my 3 days off when I had strep throat. I really would like to take a mental day tomorrow, but it will cost me $250! We can't afford that. It is hard to teach when I am so sad. Some of my students asked what was wrong, and I told them I just wasn't feeling well. I don't want to be sad anymore.